alive

katie told me that spinning around in circles made her feel alive.

all i felt was dizzy.

i looked up at the coral hues of orange... persimmon... as i spiralled around the field that day.  still, the dizzying blur of color and the autumn air in my lungs were intoxicating.

"you should probably stop, now."

i had been warned.

maybe that's why all i felt was dizzy when i finally did stop.

i'd taken it to extremes, again. 

seems to be a re-occurring theme in my life:

Take it to the Limit.

i've been dangling over the edge, before....pondering if the trip down would even be that bad in the first place.

i ended up being lifted to safety, without giving consent.  thank you to each of you who decided i was worth going over that ledge for.  and, thank you for bringing me back.

now, taking it to the limit, has a different meaning.  no longer do i flirt with disaster, the way i used to.  at least, not purposely.  but, now...it seems the dizzying pace of my life is such that even if i did stop...all i would feel is dizzy and disillusioned.

turning in circles isn't for me.

i'm more of a zig-zag girl, myself, anyway.

;)  until next time,

you zig-and i'll zag-and katie....well, katie's gonna spin.

much much love-

hillllllllllary