Tired of being Sad
I'm sad. Often.
I suppose you could say that I have lived my entire life with a broken heart.
And, that has handicapped me.
It has cost me relationships.
It has cost me happiness.
It continues to oppress me.
The best I seem to be able to do is have "days".
Days where I don't cry.
Days where I go outside to see the sun.
Days where I try to get past the ache in my heart.
But, it's always waiting for me.
And, I seem to always default back to the pain.
I'm tired of being tired.
I'm sad that I'm always so sad.
I need a friend.
I need love.
I need affection.
But, you can't be a bundle of needs with nothing left to give.
That'll cause people to run.
And, so I hide it. My pain. My sadness. My ache.
And, I own it.
It becomes me.
And, I must say...it's a contstant.
It never lets me down.
It just robs me of everything else.