Category: Religion and Philosophy
U2 Lyrics - 40
(They played this song at Reed's Funeral)
"I waited patiently for the Lord
He inclined and heard my cry.
He brought me right out of the pit,
out of my miry clay.
I will sing a new song,
How long to sing this song?
He set my feet upon a rock,
and made my footsteps heard.
Many will see,
Many will see and fear.
I will sing, sing a new song.
How long to sing this song?"
Truth is, I'm still heart-sick over losing Reed. The crying bits have gone-for the most part- but, that thick nauseous lump in my throat creeps up frequently. (Especially ANY time I hear U2 or Depeche Mode.)
I'm flying to the Fiji Islands today. Halfway around the world and away from my loved ones.
I am terrified. I do not want to go.
Not because I think something "bad" will happen. I've travelled alone across the ocean before. It all will be okay...but, right now-I don't want to be away from my family at all. I have not healed. I do not feel okay, and quite honestly - I can feel the emptiness in the world now that Reed's gone. There's a void, a lack of warmth, a black hole.
Now, I feel the tears creeping up again.
Earlier today I mentioned that I'm going to take this trip to Fiji as an opportunity to seek God. That I will do. I know I'll see His face in the beauty all around that place.
But, God...
sometimes all I really want is to crawl under the covers to find you.
With love, pensive action, yet courage to overcome,
hillary